My youngest son is graduating from high school in two weeks. I’ve been working on a photo slideshow for his graduation party, which is part of the reason this memoir entry is late coming out.
As I look back at the photos and memories of the past 18 years with that wonderful, funny, unique, intelligent and special soul, I am both proud and sad. Proud of the life we’ve lived. We’ve had a wonderful life together, as we travelled the world, lived over seas and experienced life together. I look back at the child he was, and look at the man he is becoming and am so proud. I also look back at the child he was, and the man he is becoming and am sad that he will be spreading his wings and leaving the nest. The thought terrifies me. But I know we raised him well. He is a good person, with a calm demeanor. He doesn’t get riled easily, and will do wonderfully with everything challenge he is handed.
It’s time to brag a bit. He will be graduating with honors, and as part of 5 different honor societies. He is looking to major in oceanography/marine biology and ocean engineering. He has loved everything about the ocean for as long as I can remember. It was always a given that he would do something with water or sea life.
He will be attending Old Dominion University in the fall, where he will begin working toward his engineering and marine science degrees. His ultimate goal is ocean engineering, so he will need to transfer at some point. There are only a handful of schools in the country with ocean engineering, that also have oceanography and marine biology and all are quite pricey.
Yes, I will be an empty nester soon. I’m not sure how I feel about that. I didn’t handle it well when my oldest son moved out. I was in a deep funk for weeks. I’m a Mom, it’s who I am, and what I’ve been for more than 20 years. I love and care for the people in my life. I’m not sure how I’ll handle being an empty nester. Maybe, just maybe, I’ll learn to focus on and care for myself instead?