I have fallen away from
my goals over the past 2 weeks…
Well, I think I dread writing this entry more than my first one. At the end of my first journal entry, posted on May 4, I added these goals:
- OBVIOUSLY-stay away from soda
- Drink 100 ounces of water a day
- Log all food/meals
- walk 2 miles a day
- do yoga 3 times during the week
- meditate every day for 30 minutes
I was doing very well. I had been away from soda for several weeks. I was logging food every day and meditating each morning. Water is never a problem for me. I was even walking 2 miles a day. The only thing I struggled with is finding time to do yoga.
Then Monday May 8th hit…
As many of you know, on that day, my son was in a bicycle accident in which he broke 3 bones-his right wrist and both bones in his lower left leg. His leg required surgery and our lives were turned upside down.
I spent 4 days and 3 nights in the hospital with him. My stress levels went off the charts. I was getting, at most, 2 or 3 hours of sleep a night. ALL of the above goals went out the window and all effort went to focus on my son. I didn’t care about anything else. I didn’t take care of myself…I didn’t do any school work…I didn’t leave the hospital, or my house, after he was released from the hospital. I didn’t exercise…at all. I didn’t meditate or do yoga. I quit logging my meals. In fact, I quit eating healthy. I was lucky to eat at all.
Worst of all… I started drinking soda again.
Just like an addict, drawn back to what brings comfort. Soda has always been a source of comfort for me, especially during times of stress.
I don’t mean for this to sound like an excuse. It’s just what happened and it’s a pattern for me… a pattern I must break. I feel awful, worse than usual. Not because I let myself down, which I did, but because I feel as if I have let all of you down. That’s the power of a journal of this nature. Something this public is very motivating. At the time of this particular failure, all focus was on my family, so I didn’t care about the fact that I would eventually have to admit all to you. But, writing this is very difficult for me and I don’t want to have to do it again.
So, using the SMART goal technique–
Here is my plan for getting back up again…
In order to improve my health and rid my body of psoriatic arthritis, as well as chronic sinus pain, I will lose 30 pounds-2 pounds a week for 15 weeks, beginning on Sunday, May 21, 2017 and ending on Sunday, September 3, 2017. In order to accomplish this goal, I will do the following things-
- Stay away from soda-I quit drinking soda 5 days ago. So, I’ve been clean for about 5 days now.
- Walk 5 miles a day–
- My goal was to work up to walking 5 miles a day (10,000 steps)
- To do this, I am going to start with 2 miles (4000 steps) and slowly work my way up to 5 miles. I think I can still manage this. I had planned on doing this outside. However, since my son is homebound/bedridden, I can’t leave him alone, so walking outside is out of the question.
- I can, however, walk inside. I haven’t been doing this, but I think it’s possible. I even have lots of stairs, which add to the challenge.
- Meditate every day for 30 minutes– This is easily accomplished, it will just take the ambition to get it done.
- Drink 100 ounces of water a day-When I’m not drinking soda, I drink only water. So no problem here. I track it with mynetdiary.com
- Eat whole foods 90% of the time.-allow myself to eat 1 or 2 “fun foods” a week (non-sugary of course.)
- Log all food/meals-Again-easy enough to do…just need to do it. Tracked with mynetdiary.com
- Do power yoga 2 times during the week– every Tuesday and Thursday – I hate lifting weights, but LOVE LOVE LOVE yoga. I’m hoping that by doing power yoga instead, my muscle tone will improve.
There is my goal. You can follow me every step of the way. I’ll post a journal each week, with stats from my food and exercise log. This log/journal will help me stick with it and hold me accountable.
Hopefully, I won’t fall again. I need to quit using life’s stresses as an excuse to eat/drink sugar. There will always be stressful times in my life. I need to figure out how to deal with stress, without turning to sugar.
Because I am going into the field of nutrition, I tend to hold myself to a higher standard. I feel like such a failure so far, with my inability to give up sugar. I know EXACTLY what it does to me, yet I can’t stop, or I have a hard time stopping. It’s really frustrating. I feel like in order to be able to help others, I need to help myself first. Since I’m still in school learning how to do this, now is the best time.
I also hope you learn from my experiences and failures. Also, through my experience, I hope you come to understand that nutritionists often struggle with the same issue as everyone else. Maybe, because I am going through this, I’ll be able to better understand what people are going through, because I’ve been there. One more thing for you..
Isn’t life funny?
A comment from spiritpost.net came in
just as I was typing this journal entry.
It contained a link to this song,
in hopes that it would lift my spirits.
I knew it was meant to be shared with all of you.
Enjoy your weekend everyone!