Ok, it’s time to rip off the bandaid and write this thing. I’ve been procrastinating like crazy.

I’m going to start off by thanking my fellow blogger at CONFESSIONS OF A REBORN GIRL, for helping me to be fearless and live a boundless life. I’m normally a very private person. It is her inspiring posts that have given me the courage to write this journal. If you haven’t visited her site yet, I highly recommend it. She’s a wonderful and inspiring writer.

Ok, here we go!

Since starting work on my Master’s degree in September, 2015, I have learned so much about food and its effect on the body. So, since that time I’ve made concerted effort  to implement some, if not all of the things I’ve learned. But, knowing how to do something and actually being able to carry it out, are two different things. And, I have made progress, just not as much as I’d like, or in the areas I’d like.

Like most Americans, before I went back to school for my Master’s degree, I ate the Standard American Diet (SAD). For decades, I’ve had two particular substances to which I’ve become addicted, caffeine and sugar.  Anyone who has ever been addicted to either of these two substances and tried to quit, knows just how difficult it can be. (The withdrawal symptoms are enough to kill you. 🙂 )

In fact it was when I went to college the first time, 30 years ago, that my addiction to these two substances was born. I remember many a late night, staying awake with Mountain Dew…talk about the ultimate sugar/caffeine combo! Soda is still my preferred “drug of choice”. It’s difficult to stop doing something to which you’re addicted and been doing for 30+ years. That’s why I’ve been posting so much about soda lately. It’s as much a reminder to me as it is for you.

Well, it was about 6 or 7 years ago that I saw the first two nutrition films that really hit home for me and made me realize just how powerful food could be. The first film was FAT, SICK AND NEARLY DEAD. This is a film about a a sick and overweight Australian man who goes on a 60 day juice fast, with amazing results.

The second movie was THE GERSON MIRACLE. This movie is based on the life of Dr. Max Gerson who developed a cure for cancer in the 1920’s, using a special diet which includes giving the patient 13 glasses of freshly made juice a day. His daughter Charlotte and her 2 children are still using this diet to cure people today. They cure patients from all over the world, that have been told by other doctors to go home and prepare to die. If you only watch one of these 2 movies, make it this one.

So, inspired by these two movies, I went on my own 10 day juice fast. I made sure to use some special tactics laid out in the GERSON movie, which help the liver detox the body. (WARNING-If you have a chronic illness DO NOT, under any circumstances, do a juice fast or any other form of detox without the help of a professional. Your liver is a very resilient organ, but it’s not invincible-the patients using THE GERSON DIET are under professional supervision)

In hind sight, it was probably not very smart of me to do a detox alone. That being said, The results were incredible. I lost 11 pounds in those 10 days, and proceeded to lose a total of 50 pounds, using a whole food plant diet. I looked and felt incredible. My cravings for sugar and soda were all but gone. AND my passion for nutrition was born.

Gradually, however, my SAD diet slowly crept back into my life. With a little junk here and a little soda there. Before I knew it, pounds slowly came back. And worse, I was back on soda. My psoriasis, psoriatic arthritis, allergies, chronic sinus headaches and migraines all came back.

I have tried more juice fasts over the years with different degrees of success. They didn’t always result in weight loss, but they ALWAYS cured my psoriasis, arthritis and allergies.

Then I found Hawthorn and began work on my degree. My diet has completely done a 180 since starting the program. We eat a whole food diet about 80 to 85% of the time, which helps keep away the chronic symptoms like psoriasis, allergies and arthritis. I feel really good, but it could be better.

We eat the following almost 100% of the time:

  • Locally purchased grass-fed beef
  • Locally purchased yogurt/eggs
  • wild seafood
  • pasture raised or free range chicken
  • Locally grown produce (or grocery store organic in the winter)

There is one thing I haven’t been able to stop, which is keeping the weight on, and that’s soda. That evil little voice in my head says “Oh, one won’t hurt”  and like any other addict, one leads to two and before you know it I’m drinking soda instead of water.

I now treat it like alcohol.–

Hello, I’m Tamara and I’m a sugarholic!

I can’t have any soda ever again. Can an alcoholic drink occasionally or a drug addict take drugs occasionally and still be ok? It’s the same with sugar. The body is addicted to the sugar in the same way as the other drugs. In fact it’s worse, because sugar affects more parts of the brain than alcohol or drugs.


I went on a juice fast 4 weeks ago and haven’t had any soda since. So I’m on the right track. I just need to stick with it now. (BTW-I use TAPPING when I get a craving, and it works wonders!)

That’s why I decided to start this journal. Doing this will help me to stay away from that nasty, toxic soda. I will be honest with all of you and tell you if I “fall off the wagon”.  Otherwise what’s the point, right?

So, each week I’ll layout goals for the next week. For this week, these are my goals  from FRIDAY, MAY 5 TO FRIDAY, MAY 12, 2017:

  • OBVIOUSLY-stay away from soda
  • Drink 100 ounces of water a day
  • Log all food/meals
  • walk 2 miles a day
  • do yoga 3 times during the week
  • meditate every day for 30 minutes

Finally, in order to coincide with the journal from my other blog My Walk in the Woods, this journal will now be posted every Saturday. So, look for the next journal to be posted on SATURDAY, MAY 13, 2017, where I’ll lay out more specific goals, tell you how my week went, and what tools I use.

Setting goals is the first step in turning the invisible into the visible.

Well, that’s all for now. I hope you aren’t too disappointed in me. I believe everything happens for a reason. Maybe, the reason I’m having this problem with soda right now, is to share my story and help someone else who might have a problem. I need to realize that it’s nothing to be ashamed of, and that everyone struggles with something. AND, when I finally do get my degree, I’ll be able to better understand what my clients are going through, because I’ve been there.

Leave me any thoughts, comments, tips or criticisms! I’d like to make this an open discussion on any topic discussed in any of my journals.

Have a beautiful evening everyone.

God Bless 



12 thoughts on “My Journal: My Story

      1. It’s a great film. It includes inspiring stories of cancer survival, all done with nutrition. It’s quite powerful.
        I’ll work on the resource page then. Thanks!


  1. Thank you, thank you for sharing so much useful information. I struggle with sugar. I love to eat a dessert after dinner, although I know it’s not good for me. I often feel so sluggish about 1 hour afterwards and regret it every single time. I will try your suggestions. I especially would like to try the “tapping” technique. Again, THANK YOU for educating me 🙂

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  2. Sugar is so addictive. Like you, I gave it up for almost a year, then slowly made exceptions until now I’m back to cravings daily. And, up 8 pounds. Thank you for sharing. I feel like I can do this with you!

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